All Emotions

As most people know we are moving to Michigan to go to school. November was a crazy month, full of packing our first apartment up in a big ABF semi to send to MI. We lived at my friend Lindsays house out of suit cases, finishing our last week of work. After we finished work, the Hoovers took us in. The room they are allowing us to live in is so beautiful. Its a beautiful home away from home away from home...! We feel extremely blessed by all the helping hands around us. The Lord is truly showing us His love through all of this. The week of Thanksgiving we packed a small cary on suitcase and were off at 4am to the airport to fly to Minnesota. We arrived there at 9:30am and our sister Liz and her fiance picked us up. We drove 10 hours home to Muskegon MI. Arriving there at 11:15pm, dad Hutton, mom Hutton, Amanda, Ethan, Liz, Caleb, Adam and I went down stars to see the progress on the remodeled basement. As we walked down I saw our couch already in the living room. What a huge blessing, they had already began to unpack our ABF truck that arrived days before. Our room and living room was so beautiful. I instantly began thinking of how I was going to stage the rooms. On our table there was a bottle of wine, two wine glasses, dark chocolates, and a beautiful letter reading "Designed with love." What a blessing! We all went up to the table to drink, eat, laugh, and talk. We all soon thought of the long day ahead of unloading the rest of the truck and Thanksgiving, and decided to turn in. Adam and I headed down to our new room crawled in bed and said a prayer. The next morning we all ate breakfast and got to work. I stayed downstairs delegating where to put everything and carefully inspecting everything to make sure it arrived safely. Most everything did but I was feeling extremely overwhelmed. I told myself over and over "Just take a deep breath, your ok!" I went to move our table to make a little more space for everything and 'CRACK'! The leg of the table broke off. "Just take a deep breath, your ok!" Dad Hutton asked how we where doing and all I could say was I don't know. I told him about the broken leg on the table and he quickly said it could be fixed noticing the change in my spirit. We finished unloading the truck and I went up stairs to get away from the mess. I sat in the living room silently crying. "I just wish I could cry as my momma or my big sisters held me." I thought
You see, about a week earlier as we where packing up our apartment my mom and dad came to help us pack and right when they got there I pulled my mom in the kitchen and she wrapped her arms around me telling me I would be ok as I cried in her bosem. Then the next day we where trying to finish and my big sister and her family came over to help. Right when she walked in she hugged me and I burst into tears again. The thought of leaving them was really hard for me to handle and packing up my apartment was making it a reality that was hard to face.
So here I sat in the living room feeling similar emotions and crying alone. The Lord said to me "Go to your mother-in-law, she will hold you." So I swallowed any pride I may have had and walked into the kitchen where she was making a pie. I then burst into tears and melted into her arms. She hugged me as best she could with her hands covered in pie doe telling me I would be ok. I got all my tears out and took a deep breath. Adam stood there looking at me with his "are you ok?" eyes and invited me into his strong arms. I didn't feel alone at all I had my family surrounding me with love and support. I was ok! We then all got ready for our trip to Uncle Tim and Aunt Chris' house for Thanksgiving dinner. We arrived there and it was an instant party, 3 out of 7 of moms siblings where there with their whole family which makes for about 25 people. We ate, laughed, played and just had a good time! It was a blast! We went home at about 11 and all crashed. The next day Adam and I got as settled as best we could, there in the basement. We all got ready, packed and headed out for our 4 hour trip to Gaylord for the Sheer wedding. We arrived and got settled in at the beautiful hotel the family was staying at. We all grabbed drinks and fellowshipped the night away. The next day was the wedding which was a joy, lots of dancing. And the morning after that we went to Uncle Steve's church and then went to have breakfast. We said our good byes got in the car for a 10 hour drive back to Minnesota. On the way back we briefly stopped at Aaron and Krissy's to give them some love and encouragement as they where soon to go into labor. We got to Liz's house about Midnight and went to bed. After a good night sleep, we woke up and had a quick breakfast with Liz and got ready to go to the airport to head home. Caleb came and picked us up and drove us to the airport and we flue back home arriving at 2:39pm. We came back to our home away from home away from home, the Hoovers, and rested. So far we have been just chilling here. I will randomly get nervous to say my good byes but then I remind myself to let that come when it comes. I also worry that my family and I are in denial about how soon I'm actually leaving...

JESUS IS A REAL LIVE MAN!!!!

I was just doing my morning devotions and reading my book The Rewards of Fasting by Mike Bickle and Dana Candler. It is a great book so far. I'm only on the second chapter but really great book! I have been wanting to fast much more than I have been! I believe it is something that we as lovers of Jesus are supposed to do. It is not just something that we do if we feel like it. We are all called to it. period. Just like prayer if we want a true relationship with Him we have to do it! So I have been longing to gain more knowledge about it. The first chapter is all about His love for us and that our identity as humans lies in His great love for us. That we have to pursue this love to find our true identity as His BRIDE!! Anyway, after reading all of this and more I was praying and just talking to the Holy Spirt. I realized that I was speaking to the Holy Spirt, that He is the one that is with me. Then I began to think about the rest of the trinity. Father God who is sitting on the throne in the Throne Room somewhere (Rev. 4 and 5) The Holy Spirit reviled to me that when i pray to the Father God my prayers are sweet smelling incense that He truly delights in. Then I began to think about Jesus... Where is He? The right hand of the Father, in HUMAN form!! The revelation of this came to me. He is a real human just like us somewhere in the Throne Room!! I began to weep. I think it is because I will get to see Him soon as a human man! I CAN NOT WAIT!! I am my beloveds and He is mine!! I am just like Him and He is just like me!! Glory, Majesty, Splendor and Beauty, none like we have ever seen, seated on the throne, and He is ours just as much as we are His!! AHHHHHHH people!! Jesus, the living son of God and is in love with is bride... us!! He is not mostly mad, He is mostly glad!! He has jealousy for us that is stronger than the grave! HIs blood is red and worm, alive and with power!! I have to have more of Him. And so my journey to fast more begins. " He must increase, I must decrease."- John 3:30

I've been thinking a lot lately about leaving Colorado! Its going to be a hard thing to do! I'm going to miss the sun, my family, my friends, working at good ol' Elephant Bar, rock climbing, and much more! But I think that it is going to be worth the change! I will be just fine I'm sure

The Worthy Lamb

I've been thinking lately about the worthiness of Jesus! That He is worthy of our ALL! Looking around me in this day I feel that there are so many christians that are "luke warm." I even feel this way about myself sometimes. That we justify things that we want to do and why we aren't "sold out." The thing is that if we truly love Him, than we should believe that He is worthy of our ALL! That is the way the Father sees Jesus, so that is how we His children, His inheritance, His love, His bride should see Him. He is the only one worthy, the only rightful heir! If we love Him we should be willing to live fully consecrated to Him, simply because He is worthy, not because He has done anything for us or because we want to go to heaven! When we live in sin, even a little bit of sin we are saying you aren't worthy of my all and in the end i don't love you! Yes, there is the mercy and grace given to us through His cross, but He did that because we can not be as clean as Jesus by ourselves! Just because He loves us through our sin doesn't mean we should stop trying! For example: Adam loves me even through my mistakes and he forgives me but it is because when I say I'm sorry it means i'm going to do my very best to not make that mistake again. Just because I know Adam is going to forgive me doesn't mean I'm going to go off and have an affair! I LOVE HIM MORE THAN THAT! Because Adam forgives me he is worthy of my best effort! Same with my King, but even more! And sitting here writing this my heart beats for Adam, so how much more should my heart beat for my bridegroom to come who is worthy of a pure bride!!! HE DIED SO THAT WE COULD BE JUST AS WORTHY OF HIM AS HE IS OF US, NOT SO WE DON'T HAVE TO TRY OUR VERY BEST TO BE PURE FOR HIM! EVEN IF WE TRYED OUR BEST WE WOULD STILL NOT BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR THIS MAN THAT IS WHY HE DIED! I know that for me on my wedding night it was so beautiful to give Adam my purity! I wanna do the same for my bridegroom to come! When we live in a life style of sin we are cheating on our waiting bridegroom! He sits at the right hand praying for His bride, waiting and being patient, as we run around being harlots of this world because we want instant gratification, even when it comes to His presence! Jesus is more worthy for a pure bride than any other man!! Making choices to be righteousness in His sight, trying our very hardest to do what pleases Him.... that is our all and giving it our all is choosing to be pure for our bridegroom! Doing ALL that we can do to be righteous and letting Him do the rest! Its a two way street in our relationship with this man! He is worthy of all of me!

Jesus, I will do my best to give You my all each day simply because You are worthy of a pure bride!

Are My Wings Pined Down?

Are my wings pined down?

I feel like i was born a free sprit! I feel like sometimes my wings are pined down. Like i wanna fly but can't for some reason. Is the pin... jobs, money, family, etc.... or is it just me? I want to do things but i can't ever really decide what i want to do or if i really want to do them. Maybe my wings aren't pined down at all.... maybe i'm just not flying!

Introduction

Hi, my name is Desiree! I am married to Adam Hutton. Here is a quick summery of our lives: [Adam's is found at www.andhutton.blogspot.com]

My parents where going to name me Brittany but then one day when I was in my mommas belly, my parents where standing in line at a food store and my dad picked up a name book. He saw the name Desiree and said " That is her name!", it means much desired child. I grew up in good ol' Castle Rock, CO. I have a wonderful family who i love so dearly! I have four siblings, an older sister, older brother, younger sister and younger brother. I always say the only thing i am missing is a twin! I had a wonderful christian upbringing. My parents did a great job raising five kids! We went to Church of the Rock where I met my four best friends. They have been there for me through thick and thin! I was home schooled through 6th grade,went to a charter school 7th and 8th grade, and then douglas county high school. Life was good!

After graduating, I choose not to go to collage but to move to Colorado Springs and go to New Life School of Worship! I lived with one of my best friends Michelle in the basement of my grandparents house. It was good times! I grew a lot that year, spiritually and emotionally! After the 10 month program Michelle decided to move back to denver. I stuck around another year! The new School of Worship people arrived in September and this is where and when I met my amazing husband Adam William Hutton! I fell straight for him, it took him a little longer :) But what a wonderful time we had getting to know one another. We knew we wanted to get married about three weeks after we started dating and he hadn't even kissed me yet. Well, he did kiss me, I was his first kiss.... i have to brag about that of course, and told me he loved me. I went ahead and took his name and poked it on the end of mine, with honor of course! We have been married for almost a year now and i'll tell ya its been more than amazing! I can definitely do life with this kid, he is easy to be married to!

I'm in love with another man named Christ Jesus! I met Him when i was 5 years old and since then we've just been building our relationship! He loves me more than i love Him, but i try on a daily basis to love Him with my ALL! He is my breath, my life, my everything! He gave me His life for our love and the least i can do is serve Himand love Him back! I am always learning new things about Him, He is the most exciting thing/being in the universe! I love Him! i kiss You my Beloved!

So that is me, Desiree Elyse Hutton!

This blog is about us! Sometimes together sometimes separate! Its... Our life!

We are just... we!